DRIVING FROM NOR CAL TO SO CAL... REFOCUSING!
I had a chance to drive up from Socal to Norcal for Christmas this past week to visit family and friends. I ended up driving 6 hours up and 7 hours and back down. During my time in the car, I had a lot of alone time to think, reflect and talk to God about the past year…
I realized so much has happened in just the past 12 months. So much has happened in my life personally and in the world around me. As I spoke with God and listened to His voice, things became much more clear in my mind. A few things that struck me deeply was the fact that I am about to turn 30 in 201o. Many people call the 30′s as the prime of men. It’s when boys become men. It’s when a man should be at his best. It is also when Jesus began his ministry…
I thought about it long and hard. What have I become up to this point? Who am I? Am I a man of God? Honestly, I feel like I’ve done my best to be the best that I can be. Of course, I have my issues, my weaknesses, my failures and struggles like any other man. Yet, I can give myself some credit that I have worked at it with all my heart to live a life radically committed and pleasing to God. Although, I know it’s not about what I can do for Him, but it’s about what He has done for me, in dying for my sins and accepting me in my weakness… I still recognize the deep need within any man, to become a man. What does being a man look like?
I guess it looks like Jesus :) … question is, “Do I look like Him?”
It makes me wonder that although on the exterior or in the publics eye people may think…”Wow, Jaeson Ma look at all that you have done for God!” … to me, doing things for God and living a life like God are two separate things. One speaks to your gifting. The other speaks to your character. If I were to die either as a man of gifting as opposed to a man of character, I would choose the latter. If I could have both, that would be the best. No matter how many sermons I preach, churches I help start, songs I record, movies I make, people God touches through me to heal, deliver, prophesy over, etc… it’s all very much “I” focused. God spoke to me to “RE-FOCUS” and think less on what I can do, but more on what He wants to do in me. Meaning… I feel like there are areas in my life that need so much more working on… things that to me constitute a real man. Things that men don’t seem to talk about, such as learning to be a better listener, learning to be more patient, learning to be more selfless and understanding. Developing the virtues of honor, integrity, self respect and treating other people rightly. Like every person, not just the ones that I like, but the ones that to me may be hard to love.
I want to begin 2010 clean from anything that would hinder me from becoming a man of honor, virtue and integrity. I want to be more kind, gentle and self controlled by the Spirit… I want to be a spiritual man. Hopefully, when I hit 30 I will have a strong foundation to build upon. I look forward to this new year, I’m refocusing more in that I am out. Yes, there is still a lot to do, things to get done for the kingdom, lives to be changed and miracles to be experienced… but none of these things matter unless the inner man is formed so that the outer man can truly live.
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In 2010,we look forward to seeing a more spirtual
pastor called JM, may God richly bless you
funny. God was speaking to me about refocusing, though in a slightly different matter. :)
thanks for sharing. it’s been great knowing you. :)
Hi Pastor, thanks for writing about the need to refocus. I’ve been blessed by your blog entry about how gifting and character is separate entities and that we need to seek excellence in both diligently…will be checking out your blog more often! Happy 2010!
awww nice blog! It touched me!
thank you for sharing! hope to read more from you :)
i finished reading your “the blue-print”chinese version!i have been thinking about what is really “serving” Jesus!? no answer yet~ God bless you and your family!
Hey Pastor Ma I know you’re working on a documentary on Christianity in Asia, look forward to more docs. I have a suggestion you provably though about this one already do you have any plans on making a documentary on abortion? I think it will be great if a documentary was made with interviews & stories about women who regretted ever having abortions, showing ultra sounds images of these unborn children, some say an embryo is not a human so Peta can be interviewed how they consider breaking an egg of an endanger species illegal & wrong if all these pro choice supporters say an embryo is just an embryo, they say a women’s body belongs to her and has the choice to remove an embryo that’s incapable of living outside the woman’s body so why is it illegal to kick out a nest that’s within my poverty if I own it and the chances of the endanger bird of living are very high if I leave it where it is. Conjoined twins why is it that when doctors try to separate them they try to save both? Even if they share one heart. An unborn child doesn’t share his or her heart with the mother but they are sharing a body like conjoined twins. Why is it that the mother has the right if the unborn child can’t defend him or herself? We should interview conjoined twins and ask them if one of them had power over the heart (maybe the heart was a couple of inches closer to its proper place of one of them) and the owner of the heart had a chance living without his conjoined twin would he or her want to get rid of his conjoined twin? Also medics, doctors should be ask why they don’t give up on an unconscious person who’s not breathing, no pulse and just pronounce him or her dead when an embryo has a working heart, then why do they say an embryo not living human being. When these women go to abortion clinics why is it that they only need the mother to give the procedure of aborting an o.k without contacting the father of the unborn child and men who found out later in life that their child was aborted should be interviewed and how awful they felt when they heard the news. And what can we do to pass these laws out there that would put an end to this criminal act. These are just ideas for documentary, it will be great if you did it but if you get too busy with so many projects then you shouldn’t because more work means less time with God. I’m going to email other people to see what they want to take on this project. Thank you for sharing your journey with us you’re a great man.
ultrasound viewings before abortions
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TwyJX3K5xYM&feature=related
What’s So Bad About Abortion?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wm_Zb6BgXiM
great post!